Because my emotions were so long suppressed out of necessity, simply so that I could survive, my emotional development was stunted, and I am increasingly aware of how simply infantile most of my deep-felt emotional responses are. Due to supposed maturity in other areas, I am usually able to mask these infantile responses behind cogent argumentative rationalization, but I know what’s really going on, and am all-too stymied by it. Ahh, the joys of self-awareness.