I’m stealing a quick moment to post something before moving on to other tasks. This job has been really challenging to me, which is a good thing, but part of the challenge is giving the job my all when I’m there and giving my family and the rest of my life my all when I’m not. If permitted, I suspect this work role would suck the life out of me and destroy any other meaningful relationships. I’ve often conducted an imaginary conversation in my head with my supervisor in which I explain that if I am ever asked to make a little idol out of this job and bow down to it, I’ll be out the door so fast that heads would spin. The job is a means to an end, not an end. I am very grateful to have meaningful work to do in a role in which I have some responsibility and which challenges me to use my gifts, but having appropriate boundaries is very important to me. Moreover, I already have a Lord and, as much as I am able, I will not serve two masters.
All of that is simply to say that the job is good but unpredictable, stressful, and demanding, and I am still working to find balance. This has led to other big decisions that I’ll write about when able, Lord and my fatigue-level willing, perhaps tonight….